To my Youthful Readers (yes, that’s you Carrie! And all of you, as we are all young at heart), thank you for believing in me.

Today I learned the importance of believing in yourself and to stop getting in my own way. As in, when there is an opportunity to perform, try to push yourself past your self-doubts. Because sometimes, waiting just that extra day can make a difference. Mind you, I realize that my gut instinct did say I didn’t really want to pursue the photography opportunity to capture that wedding, but disappointing myself by simply not calling the couple is where I could have been more professional. Meh. You live and you learn.

Thank you for being part of my lens.

Only 24 more hours until my exam at 1pm tomorrow, woo! So far, so much to remember but I’m gonna breathe and do my best. Missing all of your comments and will be catching up next weekend. Thank you for being such angels, I’m most grateful.

Thank you for all the kindness you have shown me as I head into the last few days of studying for my exam on March 25th (see my slight freakout face here ><). As I hope my life returns back to normal at that point, so too will my reply to comments, which is always a nice break from frying my brain with chapters of stuff to memorize. Eek… (Breathe… try not to freak out… breathe)…

Being honest with yourself is one of the most difficult things to do. Facing your fears of reflecting what happened, buried so deep within me long ago, means breaking water to the surface. It’s no easy task, to challenge the darkness within. But only when we unearth what was suffocated, do we bring life to the better parts of ourselves to rise.

Ameen.

Your wings remind me of kindness to my heart.

Thank you.

Well, hello! I’m still alive, studying away, trying to make time. After March 25th, I’m really hoping that I can be of greater support to all your blogs. For now, I’m working through stuff, realizing I need counseling, and hopefully getting matched with someone who is as supportive as all of you are.

This week, I have learned how much I have taken on, and how important it is to take it easy. My Loss History Graph below made me realize how much trust I have lost over the years in both humanity and myself. How easily I let go because losses come anyways, and how much I treasure what is left of me, and kindness around me.

On a more cheerful note, I’m building some strength at the gym, and it helps me focus my angst and energies to something incredibly challenging but rewarding. Woo! Masha’Allah. Alhumdulillah. Ameen.

Super crazy busy this week and my SINCEREST apologies for being behind in reading everyone’s blogs, comments, and love! I’m behind in condensing exam notes for my final on March 25 aka no life until then. Ummm… I miss you all and appreciate the FAB support, and FORGIVE me for being so MIA! Eesh…

I was gonna take pictures of fluffy cute things but decided that being myself, in ALL its ugliness is better instead. Thanks for putting up with my muggly.